no time to save mu's photos of the filming of Sleep of the Guiltless so just visit her blog :)

http://girlbeambitious.wordpress.com/2007/12/23/sleep-of-the-guiltless/

going to film again tomorrow or rather later in the morning at 7 along the walkway between asian civilisation museum and the arts house. gonna be only a half day shoot, which i'm glad of 'cause i haven't gone for mass yet. >_<

anyway! had dinner with angie, mimi, grace, yansy and cher this evening at da chang jin korean steamboat which is along beach road, at the back of haji lane that stretch. the food is quite good! ate till damn full. then we went to alley bar again for drinks :) grace couldn't join us at alley bar though.. 'cause somebody go pak tor. heehee.

here's selected photos:
at da chang jin



mimi looks so sweet :)















do you see the "2008"?

btw, i only got 2 photos of simone i took during the rehearsal. she's the lead actress and this is her older look for the film (btw it's film noir):

i totally forgot about the funny photos we took at kim's birthday party on the 14th! i forgot to take a photo of her birthday present but pink sums it up: PINK lipgloss (in PINK packaging), different shades of PINK nail polish, hot PINK underwear, a PINK inflatable hammer (we forced her to blow it up before we left) and gold earrings (can't possibly buy pink ones right?) all in a PINK heart-shaped box filled with purplish PINK boa! haha.. the theme of her party was "once upon a time" but we all failed to dress up to her party 'cause it was really quite late. charmaine in phua chu kang outfit was hilarious!

kim with charmaine's wig


kim with both wig and mole
pck hair+rabbit ears. hehe

Christmas doesn't really feel like Christmas.. it's getting more so every year. maybe we're desensitised by the commercial concept of Christmas: putting up lights, christmas trees, giving presents.. it's no longer about celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ. some people don't even bother going to Christmas mass.

I went for midnight mass at novena church and i thought fr. glenn's sermon was really apt. he asked us why we celebrate Christmas, and talked about sharing, giving presents as being sweet but not the exact reason why. he said, "there is nothing sweet about baby Jesus lying in a manger... beneath that facade there is a passion...". a passion to love us, this yearning to be with us, even though we are sinners, living our tattered lives. it hit me then that though so many of us are Catholics, how many people are actually trying or are leading the Christian way of life? we skip mass, behave selfishly, do inconsiderate things even in church, hardly pray.. yet, God is with us. God's love is the greatest of all, because regardless of what we do or fail to do, He still loves us.

this coming new year, one of my resolutions has got to be "try to be a better person".

damn tired! it's the first day of filming of Sleep of the Guiltless today. actually i took photos of the actress, simone after i did her makeup during rehearsal but i haven't posted it up. >_< mu took lots of photos today and i thought the B&W looked really good! (mu, don't forget to send me some :P)

mu and i left earlier 'cause it was getting really late and i still have tuition tomorrow. i'm quite sure they were still filming at 10pm. sigh.. filming is really a tough job once you see how all the backstage work goes.

cannot tahan already. really need to sleep! will update on the filming soon!

omg! check out my online portfolio!

http://www.geocities.com/girlbeambitious/

thanks so much to mu for helping me get the website up! it's a great surprise and i love it! XD

P.S. the interactive is super duper cool!

heard from rena that this evening is CYF's AGM. she asked me to go but i hesitated 'cause i hadn't been down for session for the entire year and the new members don't know me. i dunno, just have mixed feelings even though the "old fogeys" are gonna be there. ever since the older members left, i felt like CYF was no longer the same. maybe the new batches and us have a generation gap. not that our ages are that far apart, but it's the level of maturity that is portrayed from their behaviour and speech, and i find that our mindsets are significantly different. perhaps i just wanted the people in CYF to stay the same and we'll be this big happy family, but that's not possible. people always come and go; it's an eventuality. change is the only thing that is constant.

when i tell people about CYF, i always feel so proud doing so 'cause i'm proud of CYF. how the pioneers got it started, how we got this far, how much love has always been shared around, how much CYF teaches about God and His church. CYF had been my second home ever since i joined after my confirmation. there was always this sense of belonging 'cause people reached out to you, gave you their love and care. it was not just about friendship; every week you learn something more about God and you experience Him every time you go down for session. it is one of the reasons i feel so strongly about CYF, that it is God-centred. i can say that my time in CYF was really a life-changing experience for me, i grew so close to God which i never thought possible. if i didn't sign up at the recruitment drive, till today i would be a sunday catholic with shallow knowledge about my religion. i'm not a pro at apologetics at all, but i had really learnt a lot of things that were fundamental to my faith in God. there is just so much to learn about being catholic! and CYF had taught me that. some people just think that being catholic is knowing that God exists and going to church every sunday. they can go for mass for like 20, 30 years of their life without knowing the meaning of mass at all. CYF showed me what being catholic was supposed to be.

now i feel like CYF has lost its CYF Spirit, the spirit which we all felt in the past, but now is like the dwindling flame of a candle about to burn out. can CYF rekindle the flame? we recently celebrated our 10th year anniversary. would we see a 20th, or even 15th? i may be cynical about its current state; still, i never want to see CYF close down. it has been the best and most active youth group i've seen; though i haven't seen that many, but how many youth groups are proud to say that they've celebrated their 10th anniversary? CYF has really come a long way. after all that love and efforts put in, how it is moulded to what it is today, it should live on.

to the young kids and would-be leaders, lead by example and remember CYF's motto: God's love we share, for you we care.

oh i forgot to post a good news: dith said i could be the makeup artist for her final year project! it's a short film titled Sleep for the Guiltless by their group Wreck Focus Productions. i just checked out the website: http://wreckfocus.gigacities.net/

the storyline sounds good.. :)

btw, i have been thinking (and thinking, and thinking...) of doing another photoshoot sometime soon, but i'm scared i can't cope with school work and the film productions are late december to january. i'd like to put more thought and effort to this next shoot 'cause i want to do something more. maybe more of a fashion shoot. besides the makeup i'd have to conceptualise my poses and styling in advance instead of it being impromptu like the previous one. it will definitely take up time and it will be a distraction. *tears hair* but if i don't do it soon, exams will be near and it will be an even worse timing for the shoot. aaaarrrrgggghhhhhh... mu (my wonderful and magical photographer, hehe) is already helping me foc, but i'll still need my model(s). bleah. anyone want to volunteer (again)? if i do the shoot, it'll very likely be the same period as the productions. so if anyone is free during this time and interested in modeling and doesn't have camera-fright, feel free to sms me. :)

shit.. time is passing by really fast and i have just reaslised that school syllabus is already halfway through and i'm super lagging. my mind's telling me that i should be busy revising all my work right now but my body is refusing to listen. the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak..

i really wanna kill myself man. i'm not supposed to shop this entire week but i ended up buying a dress from Pull & Bear. and it's only monday! i swear i was only trying on the dress for fun, unexpectedly the dress looked really good on me! i struggled with my inner self for like half an hour before i headed back into the store and bought it, still knowing that i shouldn't be buying it. aaaarrggghhhhh!!! p.s. it's really nice. sigh.

i guess sometimes it takes a hard knock(s) to make a person come back to earth. you may look back on your life and find that there were many times you felt life was unfair or many things didn't go smoothly or you didn't get what you wanted, but there's always a reason why it happened to you. and thinking back, those experiences are what made you who you are today. if i were to live my life again, i would not change a thing, or else i would never have gained the wisdom and knowledge i have today. it's sad that some people think they're better than others just 'cause of their academic achievements and become condescending; but what makes you a better person than the other? throw away society's stereotypes and materialistic requirements: what is left of you? it's how you live your life, how you treat others, how you adopt the right mindset. knowledge alone is not wisdom, it is when knowing/learning how to use that knowledge to do the right thing that becomes wisdom. tsk. those people need to learn.

suddenly i don't have anything to say on the phone. maybe 'cause you sounded very sian? or tired? or lifeless? or maybe there isn't any reason why i have nothing to say or i don't want to say. maybe, i'm over-analysing things, thinking of what you would say if i asked you or told you something.

i enjoy your company, but i have no idea if you enjoy mine despite you having to come over to my house. i'm the one always craving affection and touch from you, but you seem to enjoy being affection-less. is coming over to see me becoming a routine or is it because you really wanted to see me?

you say i have nothing to say to you. that's true, but you don't seem to want to say anything to me either. are you bored of me? or vice versa? it just makes me so tired sometimes to think of why you behave the way you do. guys may complain that girls over-think, but it's because we care. if we don't care, then there's something wrong.

it just about kills me not knowing why we're like this all of a sudden.

oops, forgot to blog that my boy's back... haha. he came back on last friday and though he was quite tired, he joined me at zouk. it was fun but a bit crazy. peipei, yk, kim, sharon and derrick were there. i felt a bit guilty 'cause it looked like a couples outing and kim was without a date. >_< we went for supper at this hongkong cafe along zion road, which is behind great world city. the place and food seemed quite nice at that time. maybe 'cause i was super thirsty and a bit hungry.

because, when i brought sam and greg there yesterday for lunch, i was so disappointed with the food. the lychee cooler is still nice but the baked pasta.. let's just say i can cook way better than that. and bill totaled to like 17 bucks per person. that's 'cause they charged for that small plate of pickles for 1.88 and everything else on the menu costs with a .28 or .88 at the back! i think that was the only "hongkong" thing about that cafe i guess. don't think i'll ever go back there again.

yesterday was a long and tired but great day! i had very little sleep the night before 'cause i was making the cards but i think it was worth it! it's a been a long while since sam, greg and i hung out together. we went to vivocity and it's ok la, nothing for me to buy 'cause i'm basically broke. haha. but i did buy a nice grey/silver top from dorothy perkins at great world city 'cause it looked nice and sam too said it was nice. haha. it's quite glittery, so besides christmas and clubbing i dunno when i can wear it again. then again, it is cheaper than the black satin top i want which is similar in design and that is 89 bucks. actually i still want that black satin top, but no money. haha.

so sad angie couldn't join us for dinner but alley bar was great! it's actually quite nice sitting inside instead of outdoors like the last time i was there. it's dimly lit with tealights, giving a relaxing and quite a romantic atmosphere. the drinks were really good! alley bar has just become my number one hangout for drinks! :D and it's quite a lot cheaper if you go early during the happy hour from 5-9. it was nice of them to keep the cake for us too. great place to chill and celebrate birthdays at the same time. :P just remember to bring a cardigan along, 'cause it's quite cold after a while.

we were halfway through our drinks when we saw howard and shan wee from denise keller's season of eye for a guy. i told cher that i was half expecting denise keller to show up. haha. it'd be nice to see her in person though. we took lots of photos and they happened to grace our background. :P

that's shan (in the yellow tee) "in between" yansy and angie.

howard's the one in the white shirt and black vest. i think he dresses well, and he looks quite cute. haha.

the rest of our evening:















can't wait till our next party! :)

i'm stuck!

i have no idea how to do my assignment and i'm losing my beauty sleep! T_T

and i feel lonely. my boy is on his way back to malaysia right now and i already miss him! i sent him off earlier and i was making a mountain out of a molehill 'cause he was only going for less than a week and i felt like it was gonna be months. haha. i'm a silly goose. bleah. :P

luckily my dad suggested having dinner next to golden mile complex so i could send my boy off. seriously, the beef steamboat there is good. the building may look ulu on the outside but inside the restaurant is damn crowded! i loved the satay even though they only do pork. it's the best pork satay i've ever had! apparently i'd been there before when i was younger but i have absolutely no recollection of it at all. according to my parents, the restaurant's been there for as long as 30 years. and business still booming. they even extended the restaurant. business booming = food is good. haha. but really. the chicken rice is good too!

since it was near bugis, we walked over and unexpectedly ended up shopping. my mom bought me this pair of gold wedges which i had been looking for a long time as my christmas present. it's from bonia and it was on super duper sale! $138 reduced to $28 'cause there's only one size left. i couldn't believe the price tag at first but yeah, the salesgirl confirmed it. a bit cheapo but it's the thought that counts. hahaha. i literally dragged my brother to topman/topshop to look at clothes. i was so lucky! the belt i was eyeing was going at half the price so i bought it immediately, and it was so fun picking out tees and shirts for my brother 'cause he's been complaining he has no clothes to wear but always has "no money". *rolls eyes*

but yeah, the day was complete with a cup of tall green tea frappucino at starbucks. shiok.

on a side note, i think my mom not only menopauses but her personality is damn scary at times. she embarassed me to the core with near-shouting tones when she didn't like the belt i wanted to buy. i think the entire store turned heads. and then, when we couldn't catch any cabs she was shouting again to ask us to "stop waiting and take the bus already!". like my dad said, she can really spoil the day sometimes. we just can't understand why she has to shout/scream her thoughts across, and she doesn't even feel that it's wrong. God help her, please. and i shudder to think that i'd one day become like her, 'cause i'm constantly exposed to that kind of treatment. you know, when you're constantly exposed to a certain behaviour, you'll sooner or later start to imitate it. e.g. scolding vulgarities, punchlines, mindsets.

please don't ever let that happen.

maybe i'm stressed about school. i had a dream last night about my subject guides. i dreamt that the courier guy delivered all my subject guides to me including my contract law text and i was so happy i received all of it. and that was the end of the dream. so weird! thing is, i got the pack some time ago but only 2 out of 5 guides were sent and the contract law text was missing too. i was so pissed so i immediately emailed uol to send me the rest of my guides. till now, i still haven't received them and i heard they just deducted the continuing registration fee, which is in pounds, just after the exhange rate appreciated. damn them man! they took like 2 bloody months. i bet they waited for pounds to appreciate then they deduct. uol is super scheming i tell you! from now on, i'll be discouraging whoever is thinking of registering for sim. hmph.

my boy is leaving for his hometown this sunday evening. sigh. i'll really miss him even though he's only gonna be away for like 4 days? we're like siamese twins that can't live being apart... hur hur. maybe only i think that way. hah.

The Game Plan is damn funny! i think it's one of the few shows that i really laughed so much and teared as well. do catch it before it ends!

Anyway, Happy Deepavali! haha. i'm just glad it's a public holiday. we're gonna celebrate ashley's and grace's birthdays later this evening, though we really dunno what to get for grace. sigh..

a huge stone has been lifted off me since afternoon 'cause i managed to drop my tuition student without a hitch, and thank goodness for ashley's help. if not for her, the kid's mom most probably would have climbed over my head already (or perhaps she already did, on that fateful sunday). i just wouldn't know how to put it across, and plus it's the first time i kena this kind of situation. argghh.

the long story is: last sunday i went for tuition as usual, i arrived there and the mom told me she forgot to tell me her kid is returning home late. ok, fine, i wait for the kid thinking that she'll be home soon, but i ended up waiting for an entire hour there. instead of charging her extra, i even tuitioned the kid for an hour more. but when i asked to collect the money, she kicked up a fuss saying why i didn't fulfill the one and a half hours. i explain to her nicely that i already waited an hour extra, but no, she starts to push the blame on me saying that i should be the one to call first to make sure the kid is available for tuition, and it's due to my inexperience and all that bullshit, and complaining that i was materialistic 'cause i just want the money. helloooo, i only took the charges for one lesson. if i count it strictly, i had given extra half an hour to her already. i told her i'm not the stingy type and i always stay a while more every lesson for free. but when i reached home, i decided that i just can't teach the kid anymore after all that had happened. ashley says i shouldn't let the mom take advantage of me, and she's right. but i really dunno how to handle the situation such that i gain the upper hand, so ashley helped me to call the mother, passing off as me, to inform her that i'm quitting. i tell you, i was so damn happy and that sense of relief, when she hung up on the mother, was unquantifiable. i'm so grateful to ashley for that call she made for me, and i thank God most importantly for helping me to get through all this smoothly and even getting a new tuition kid for me. how do i know? i just know. the timing was just so... right. the moment i decided to drop the student, the tuition agency called to ask me if i could handle another assignment. if it's not God's arrangement, what is?

i must go to novena more often now... 'cause God is still watching over me! :)